It's All About the Intentions

This marks my last day at MassMutual. I will no longer be Ryan's assistant, organizing his life from day-to-day. I will no longer organize files for Tief or do various tasks for the interns/new hires. I will no longer answer phones with "Thank you for calling MassMutual, how may I direct your call?" in my Fashion Bug voice, as Eryn calls it. If you ever wanna hear it, just ask. :)

I am moving onto...things. I can't necessarily say better things, but I can say they are going to be different things. I finally started enjoying my time at MassMutual as I began to leave, because Ryan started assigning me things to do, so I wasn't bored out of my mind. He wanted to make sure he could get as many things done "correctly" before I left. I didn't do things correctly, I just did as I was asked.

Today I spoke with Daniela, our IT girl who is just a couple of years older than me. We were talking about my leaving today briefly. I told Daniela that I will miss her, but I know there is always facebook to keep in touch. She also said she would miss having me around, because I am one of the few young ones there, like her.

She said the best thing about me is that she can't find a single person that would have a bad thing to say about me. I was shocked. I do soooo many things incorrectly at work, especially my addiction to facebook chatting Eryn and, on occasion, Matt. But I never get "caught" for whatever reason. When I think I've gotten caught, not a single person says anything. It's interesting. It's like I'm the girl who can do no wrong.

I like having that stigma because I have worked hard to earn it, but I also want to be viewed as a regular human as well. There are people, even people I work with, that don't like me. I can think of a couple at the top of my head. But I think most people base character not only on actions and words, but on intentions. I think intentions speak louder than actions and words many times.

I try to live my life with good intentions, as I think most people do. You don't meet many people who strive to make the lives of others horrible. That's not the way we are programmed. Especially those of us who strive to live like Jesus, we really try to do the right thing, even if, on occasion, our human instincts set in and we screw up.

I guess the moral of this story is to live with good intentions, even if others don't always see it that way. I think trying your darndest to do what is right and living with Christ on your side, makes all the difference in the world. Eventually, others will notice. It may take years and years of influence, but someone will change their ways because of your actions. It will happen, even if you never become aware of it. I promise. :)