Home is Where the Heart Is

Life constantly changes. One minute we are headed toward our dreams and madly in love, the next minute we are single and our world comes crashing down before us. We must rely on God in order to make it through these tough times.

Matt moved to Iowa on Saturday and I am still trying to get used to the feeling of a long distance relationship once again. This keeps happening to us. We keep flip flopping from Iowa to Missouri in order to fulfill our dreams, leaving the other one by the wayside.

Matt has moved on to a great job and training that will hopefully prepare him for school when he starts in August. Iowa is the best place for him right now.

For me, I have never felt more alone. I no longer have Eryn and of course Matt just left. I am living with my mom and her cat while working a part time job that pays nothing. Talk about unfulfilling. I made this realization that I am going nowhere fast about two months ago. I honestly didn't know what the best solution would be. I just knew that I needed to find something different in life.

I was accepted to Evangel University graduate program that I thought would be great for me. I quickly found out that the program did not challenge me. Rather, it caused me to spend money on a course that I learned nothing from. I have to make a change.

This fall, I will take a course in Drake's grad program until I can be fully accepted in the spring. I plan to move to Iowa when I can get a full time job and a place to live lined up. I will attend the church that I know and love, while seeing the people that I miss the most.

This ping pong stage in my life right now is not ideal, but it took me moving back to Missouri to realize there is nothing down here for me anymore. Iowa is where my new home is and that is the place I miss the most.

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