Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Complications

I have three more days of camp left. That means only three more days of waking up "too early" to spend an entire day with 1st and 2nd grade students. Three more days of the most unrewarding job I have ever had. The only thing I am going to miss is my lucky draw of great co-workers. I think we all feel similarly about our job, so we bond over this. 

However, I am in a situation I never thought I would ever be in. Matt is convinced and I may just be convinced as well, that I have a co-worker who is hitting on me. However, with how much I talk about Matt with my co-workers, I thought it was obvious I am happily taken. I guess not. 

Let's get the facts straight first. He has visited me at my second job three times because he said he feels bad that I am lonely at work. He visits my classroom after camp every day if he is working at the same location as me, just to see how my day went. And today, I needed a favor and he bent over backwards for me to solve my problem. I seriously didn't ask for that, he just did that. When I am with my co-workers, he brings up my boyfriend frequently and somehow remembers what I say about Matt.

My view: I think he is a nice guy. I work with mostly girls and I know he is nice toward them too. I have the belief that he is just a nice guy like that. 

Matt's view: he is chasing after me, though he knows I am taken. 

This situation has actually caused disagreements between Matt and I because we both want the situation to be done with. I fear that I unintentionally lead him on, possibly to the point where I am flirting with him. Matt fears he is being overprotective of me and untrusting of me. 

I am not sure what this actually is, but I hope it ends shortly. My co-worker is a nice guy who could get any other girl, but me. I am 100% taken and no guy will change that. I hope this situation has opened Matt's eyes to see that I am totally happy being with him and not any other guy. 

My prayer is that my co-worker stops visiting me at my second job when my summer job ends and he finds himself a good girl for him. This girl will not be that girl. 

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