It's funny how one person can make such an impact in one's life. When I dropped Eryn off at the airport on Friday morning, I felt almost sad to the point of tears. I had no idea why. I knew she'd be back in a couple of days and I knew she'd have a good time.
But now that the weekend without her is just about up, I am starting to realize why I felt this way. It's like a part of me was missing the last couple of days. Not like I need her to get by each day, but knowing I wouldn't see her at all made the days longer.
I was also very lonely at home. I am not used to doing so many things on my own, without anyone to share my daily trivial events with. I even got so lonely that I have sat my bear that Matt gave me, Rawr, on the couch all day just to have something else to be with. Is that weird?
I don't talk to Rawr very often, but it is comforting knowing he is there. It's like a quasi human replacement.
Friday into Saturday was especially hard. I didn't see Eryn all day Friday and Matt worked 18 hours that day. Then Saturday, of course I was alone at home again, and Matt worked until the evening. I was able to see him at night, which was absolutely lovely.
Why do I love to be around people so much? I don't have to talk to anyone else or even have to acknowledge their presence, but as long as there is someone else with me, I am fine.
I had trouble leaving church today because I wanted to stay and talk to Matt for the rest of the day. I just wanted to be around people. I knew I would go home and be alone until my meeting at 3. Another funny thing about being alone is that I will do things I don't even care for, just to be around others. For instance, tonight we had a SIFE bonding activity where our group hung out in Aliber and played hangman, name games and "getting to know you" bingo. Now, I am not anywhere close to a socialite, so I didn't really say much. In fact, I was probably the quietest one there of all 20ish people. Instead, I sat there, just listening to others and taking photos. I didn't really want to take photos and I didn't really want to participate, but I wanted to be around people, so taking photos was the next best thing. How silly is that?
In Sunday school today, a lady came and spoke to us about our Multiple Intelligences. I have heard about this before, but it is mainly focused on how each of us is intelligent in our own setting. I tried to figure out what category Matt fell into, but I just couldn't. He is the one person I just cannot figure out. I think that is another reason why I enjoy being around him, is because I constantly analyze him in hopes that I will finally figure him out one day. And they say girls are hard!
Anyway, when I had taken the Multiple Intelligences test in the past, I got logical/mathematical. But today, I scored second highest on that and first highest on intrapersonal. Intrapersonal people would rather work by themselves than in a group (true), know themselves very well (very true), and like to be alone more than being around others (false, as proven by this weekend.)
Now, I enjoy being quiet and listening to others, along as others are around. Heck, even in SIFE tonight, people said I was the buzzkill at nationals last May because I wouldn't play their truth or dare game. I don't mind that title at all, especially because they were being serious. It just makes me realize that I don't have to be the center of attention to have a good time. In fact, I will probably have more fun observing than participating.
I hope this is a good quality to have as I go into the field of psychology. I just love listening and learning about others, while learning more about myself in the process. I can't wait to get started in my career one day and be able to apply all these things I love so much. Then maybe Eryn and Matt would get to stop hearing about all the "fun" things I learn everyday. They don't act like it, but I am sure they are annoyed with my constant sharing of useless facts about my psych classes. At least they are nice about it. :)
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