Past, Present, Future

After class finished today, I assumed I would stay at home and do some homework. Or, at very least, plan out my day for Saturday and find various things to do around the house. Well, I was wrong on all accounts.

I found out Matt was also free tonight, so we decided to hang out at Saylorville Lake. There's a beach, boat dock, and various rocks to climb over and hurt yourself. Just a fun time all around. We found a large rock in the mass of rocks and staked our claim. We just sat there, enjoying the nice weather and the beautiful water in front of us. It was so peaceful, very much like something you see in the movies.

After it got dark, we decided to walk along the beach in the moonlight, while looking at the stars. Again, sounds like something else from the movies, but it really happened. :) We then goofed around, trying to jump and touch the Big Dipper. We knew if we jumped high enough, we'd finally reach it one day.

My entire night was something out of a romantic movie, but it is was even better. I cannot remember being this happy, this comfortable, this loved. Everyday with Matt feels like a daze that I never get out of. Since meeting him in May, I really feel like I have been in a dream. It's crazy to think that less than 4 months ago, we didn't even know each other existed. Well, he didn't know I existed. My fabulous stalking skills allowed me to know bits and pieces about him before we actually met.

And here we are today, thoroughly enjoying each other's company, talking about what is on our minds at that moment, and goofing around like children. I will never regret staying out too late with him, living life. That's right, I am actually enjoying life once again. I have tests coming up, training for SIFE and projects due in the next couple of weeks, but these no longer consume my life. I have someone in my life replacing all things I used before to consume my free time and distract me from the real world.

It's so nice to live in the moment, even if for only a couple moments. It makes me realize how boring and uptight I have been all of these years. There are definitely more important things in life than a 4.0, especially if I've already blown my chance at that 4.0.

Matt is a blessing in my life that I thank God for each and every day. I don't care about the future at this moment, when the present is so amazing.