You Stay the Same Through the Ages

Sometimes I just wish I had all of the answers. I wish I could see into the future before any decision I make, just to assess the consequences. Why do I worry, with God always there. I am reminded of a line in the song Your Love Never Fails by Jesus Culture:

"You make all things work together for my good."

Yet still I worry. One example I can think of clearly is my recent purchase of a new car. At the time, during the summer, I really thought I needed another car. I mean, I am 19 years old, I think I have worked hard enough to have a car to my name. So, my greediness, and fear of being stranded sometime, convinced my mind I needed another car. So I bought one. Problem solved.

Since the purchase, one thing after another after another has come up, causing my money supply to diminish. I wonder if God is telling me that choice was entirely selfish and I should have been content with what I had. Now I am with two cars, only one of which I can drive at any given time, leaving another one in the parking lot. I realize Eryn and I have needed two cars probably a handful of times since the car purchase, but it hasn't been too serious.

So, I sit here, on a Saturday night, wondering what if because of the car.

In other news, the Drake volleyball team is AWESOME. Eryn, Kody, Mary, Bill, and I went to see a game last night versus Bradley. Oh my word, I cannot describe how much I miss volleyball after watching them play. Eryn and I commented on the entire game, from good plays to bad, like we knew everything about the game.

Then I think, why on Earth did I stop playing cold turkey? I loved playing in high school, regardless of my inability to play well. I can set a decent set every once in a while and get lucky on an ace serve. Other than that, I just purely enjoyed the competition. I have decided, if I have a daughter that is relatively tall, I will toss around the idea for her to try volleyball. If she doesn't like it, that's completely fine. But if she likes it, I can live vicariously through her, right?

:) With that I say, "there may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning."