A Blessing in Disguise

Yesterday, I faced a challenge I expected to never have to face. By the grace of God, what could have been struggle, turned into a blessing.

At Momentum last night, Matt and I began small talk and sat by ourselves, as self-proclaimed introverts. However, as I begin another story, I notice a familiar face. A VERY familiar face indeed. We'll call him Blake, though that's not his real name. I met Blake the summer after my freshman year of college, nearly 1.5 years ago.

I instantly clung to him, mostly because he was different than other guys. You could hold a conversation with him. And he loved God. We hung out for a short time, then he left for college. I was obsessed with him. We spoke maybe a couple of times after he left, but only in brief Facebook comments.

After that summer, no guy measured up. Every guy that came in my life was not even a comparison to Blake. I was so lost, realizing I would never see Blake again. This all changed when I met Matt. That is the biggest sign I knew God was showing me. I knew he wanted me to take a second look at Matt, because he may just be better than I could ever expect.

And that's exactly what happened. Matt loved God, had a great sense of humor, and would talk to me for hours. In fact, since the time I met Matt, I don't remember a single time Blake crossed my mind. Not once. Until last night, that is.

I feared the day I would see Blake again, if ever again, because I didn't know what my feelings for him would be. Better yet, Matt was with me, so if there were feelings, there was no way to hide them from Matt.

Blake recognized me and I introduced him to Matt. After small talk, I almost didn't exist. Matt and Blake talked for quite awhile, while I just stood there, awkwardly. I almost felt like I was conducting a blind date for my current boyfriend. God can be funny sometimes.

The best part about last night is that I know God placed Blake back in my life finally when I was ready to move on. When Matt had walked into my life, I could deal with my past. I can't express how much I care for Matt, especially in situations like last night. I am so grateful God placed him in my life.

Last night, for me, was a great example of how God never gives us something bigger than we can handle. He always takes care of us. I finally have closure with Blake and I am grateful knowing he wasn't for me. Especially now that I found someone I cannot picture my future without. I am one lucky girl.