Love and Marriage

Why is it that when someone tells me they "need to talk to me" or "need to discuss something with me" I automatically think the worst? If it's my boss, I assume I've done something wrong. If it's my boyfriend, I assume I've done something wrong. If it's a professor, I assume I've done something wrong. You get the idea?

I don't know where this fear of failure is coming from. I never used to think the worst, especially in situations like these. I used to think they had another project for me, or a surprise, or just a "good job." Not anymore.

I believe I am on edge because my life is all about the unknown right now. I am no different than any college student in this aspect. Most of us have to get jobs after we graduate or get into graduate school or complete internships or do something with our lives once we are done. Not to mention, we have to start taking care of our finances on a more extreme level and we have to decide who we are going to marry, where we are going to live, and what we want to do with the rest of our lives. No pressure.

I learned in Adolescence last semester that the ideal age to attend college is around 24, when most adults' brains have fully developed. Ironically enough, the brain is most vulnerable between the ages of 18 and 24, because the transition from adolescence to adulthood is a rough transition biologically. In other words, high school should last until we are 24 then we should begin the rest of our lives. Oh and marriage should be illegal until people reach the age of 24. Our brains would be mature enough to handle big decisions like the ones we are now making at the age of 20.

Of course that messes up anyone's life plan, especially when society doesn't allow us to loaf until we are 24. It just doesn't work. And personally, marriage sounds like so much more fun at 22 than 24. lol. That doesn't change much I guess.

At any rate, it's hard to make so many crucial decisions when we still have several years before our brains will fully develop. That is one reason why so many college students find a release in drinking, drugs, or even an addiction to food. If only our brains could be done growing when the rest of our bodies are done. That would make life easier.

At church, we are currently going through a series covering marriage and family. It is very interesting, mostly because I can't wait to have a family one day. Some of the things he talks about actually pertain to my life, as screwed us as my mind is right now. :)

One of the biggest things I took away from yesterday's service is that men deserve/crave respect. Not that women don't deserve it, but we don't crave it as much as, let's say, listening to us. It makes sense to me now why guys will tear up during an action movie but not during a chick flick. They see value in working hard and being respected by others, that when a guy accomplishes something great in a movie, they respect him. But they won't cry when a man and woman get engaged in a movie, then she dies of cancer a day before their wedding. Silly boys.

I can't wait until service this coming Sunday to learn more about what God's word says about raising a Christian family. :)