When Prayers are Answered

My job and I have a bittersweet relationship. My work needs me and I need the money I receive from working, thus we rely on one another. However, I don't care for my job most days and my job doesn't care for me (I am not the type of person that should be doing what I am doing.)

With that said, I've stayed here because of affective commitment. In other words, I feel obligated to stay because the people I work with are wonderful and they rely on me, so I would feel bad if I just quit.

Last night, like many times in the past, I was telling Eryn about my search for a new job. I found a job at work yesterday (I know, I'm an awful employee) looking for a social media intern. She convinced me to apply today.

While at work today, I searched for the job, but it was gone. Looks like someone filled the position since yesterday when I found it. That's okay, there will be more out there, I told myself. Not even ten minutes later, my boss pulled me aside to speak with Ryan, the guy I work for.

They want me to get more involved with recruiting by calling experienced agents through a database. Ryan is giving me a script (which I most likely will not follow) and I am going to call these agents to see if they are interested in MassMutual. In addition, every interview I set up with a prospective MassMutual agent, I will get a bonus. Now, if you know anything about MassMutual, it's that they spend a lot of money on recruiting and recruiters. A LOT.

My boss then asked if I was interested. The best response I could muster was "oh yeah!" It seemed to do the trick because she smiled and got excited. I walked away thinking, what just happened? Just yesterday I was looking for another job, as I often do, then today, the job I wanted was gone and they offered me an opportunity in recruiting, what I have wanted since day one.

This isn't the first time I have seriously began searching for a new job and my work offers me something better. Last month, I began looking for another job for the fall and my job put me in charge of creating and maintaining Facebook and Twitter accounts, so I stopped. In May, I started looking for another internship for the summer when I was placed in charge of creating our company website, so I stayed. Even in March, I was getting bored, so I started looking at other opportunities, when my boss approached me about starting a quarterly company newsletter, so I stayed.

Since March, I have continued praying for my job, hoping God would lead me where I belong. Right now, I feel like God is telling me to wait it out for awhile and see where MassMutual leads me. In fact, if I can be patient enough for two more years, I have a full-time position waiting for me.

Needless to say, I am super excited to go to work tomorrow to begin calling prospective agents. Maybe I'll even schedule an interview or something, who knows?