Decisions, Decisions

My biggest problem these days meet at one location. A simple problem that many can overcome, but not me. The problem I am facing is making decisions and sticking with them.

For instance, when deciding what I want to do for the rest of my life, I struggle with what I want to do and what I think God wants me to do, and what I think will support a family. Now, I've found things that fit what I want to do and what will support a family, but not what God wants me to do.

The best example is going into Psychology. I LOVE learning about what makes us tick, and one day, learning how to help others with their problems. However, there is a drawback. I would have to compromise a family if I want to go into Psychology. After Drake, I'd have at least 5 years of school, plus at least 2 years of residency before I could even practice. Not to mention, building a client base and getting skilled in my field.

So let's do the math: I'll be 22 when I graduate from Drake. Tack on 5 - 7 years of graduate school, 29. Add 2 more years of residency: 31. Then, I can worry about a family. Nu uh. This is what made me unsure that God wanted me in Psychology. I want a family and I feel that's what God wants for me as well, more than a career that I feel I want for me.

If I were to do college all over again, I'd go into Psychiatry. That way, I'd have 12 years of school after high school, but I'd be prepared for that. I could start a family during my four years of residency and still be able to prescribe medicine in the end. Oh well.

Now, I am focusing on graduating from Drake and going to grad school for my MBA in Marketing, a total of 2 years. That puts me at 24 after grad school, definitely a reasonable age to end school. Plus, I can work full time during grad school, so I can support myself while studying. It's a win-win. After I'm out, I plan to work in consumer behavior, researching why people make the purchases they do. Specifically, what kind of food marketing out there drives young men and women to delve into eating disorders. I know it's super specific, but a girl can dream, can't she?

Then, of course, I'd love to have a family and open a bakery with Eryn around 40 or so. Just for something different, exciting, and something I absolutely love.

However, getting married falls into the plan somewhere. Not sure when, not sure where, not sure how, but I hope it happens. The indecisiveness in me still makes me question who is this guy and what am I really looking for. Goodness, that is something I really wish God made easier for us.

For now, I'm stuck in the guessing game. I can't lie, it's kind of fun. ;)