I Wish Things were Different

It's official: I have a B in Business Law. It's the final grade. The determinant of my worth in college. And I have failed myself. I am frustrated because of all the work I put into the class. My transcript just says B so anyone could think I got an 80%.

I was so close. 12 points away from an A. 88%. Ugh.

I probably shouldn't write when I am so angry, but most times it helps. So I gave up that President's List rating on my resume and anything that came along with it. Awesome.

If the class were not focused so heavily on memory, It would have been great. I mean, I did everything I could to try and remember the technicalities. But it never worked. Never.

I am not mad at the professor. He is the best professor I've had and probably will have.

It was just that one thing I wanted but now say I'll never have. That 4.0 throughout college. Plus, this is just my sophomore year and I am struggling. Who knows how much harder it will get from here on? Will I ever get A's again? Ugh.

This break is just what I need to get my grades off my mind. Seriously, I have to do better in the future.

On a lighter note, I slept in until 8 today. It was fabulous. I love not having to worry about my tests, or homework, or getting to class, or going to work. I can just worry about doing what I want, which is nothing.