What to Do With My Life

Eryn, Kody, and I went to the Kirkpatrick's basement today to discover what we could salvage. Unfortunately, it wasn't much. Luckily, we were able to grab our mini muffin pan, our binders for the business school, and my wallet that holds every ticket stub from every event I have attended since I was eight, minus one. (That's a long story for another time.)

A pile of my clothes were damp and moldy, so they had to go. Also, my textbooks from last semester were wet beyond reselling. All of my electronics (including the nifty hand vacuum I recently purchased) have to be replaced. It could have been worse.

I feel like the saying "when it rains, it pours" fits my life right now. I just found out today that one of my mom's loans did not go through, which means that will probably be another loan for me. Debt makes me nervous. I can't say I wish it were different, because I am blessed to have the life I already have, but sometimes I wish things were easier.

At any rate, thinking about the excessive amount of debt I am acquiring, I started looking into the track for becoming a psychiatrist. Starting pay is 6 digits, but the job just sounds so exciting. Unfortunately, I will not start making that kind of money for another ten or fifteen years. After a bachelor's degree, I am required to go to medical school for four years, plus at least four more years of residency. If you have been keeping up with the math, that's eleven years from now.

Will it be worth it? Plus, the schooling will be terribly difficult. The reason I changed from Pre-Dentistry to Business is because of the difficulty. Do I really want to go through with this? At the end of the day, will all of this be worth it?

With so many unanswered questions, I am left waiting for school to start so I can get back to normalcy. What a week.